29 January 2010

When It Rains, It Pours......

And not always in a bad way!

A lot of positive things are happening in my life again. It really is interesting how cyclicle my life is. For a while the world pisses on me, and I pull out my umbrella and weather the storm. Then the sun comes out and drenches me in warmth, and I put away the umbrella and soak it all up for as long as I can before the world starts to piss on me again.

There are a lot of good things happening right now that I don't want to talk about, as I am not ready to announce the plans yet, but there are a lot of good things happening behind the scenes in my life. It was the right time for me to take a risk and step out into the ring and get this done.

One good thing that has happened because of some extra work that I have been picking up lately is that I am finally a Seattle Sounders FC SEASON TICKET HOLDER!!! (ok you can all be jealous now.... .... .... .... Ok enough with the jealousy) I have picked up sidejobs DJing for HS Dances and such, and I stashed that money aside because I didn't really know what I wanted to do with it. Well at the start of this week, the supporter group that I am a part of, Gorilla FC posted that their broker had a pair of tickets available in their section, and anyone interested should contact them immediately. I had wanted to get in this year, but just didn't have the money when they were taking initial payments, so I thought I lost out this year. I gave the broker a call that day, and they were still available, so now they are MINE!!! So 18 days over the next 40 weeks I will be unavailable, just so you know.

Another thing that I can talk about is that I will be taking my first vacation in YEARS with my family down to Great Wolf Logde in probably Late Feburary/Early March. I have wanted to take the family somewhere for a long time, and now I am able to do it. It will only be for a night or two, but still, that is still the first vacation I have been able to take with them since meeting Erin 4 years ago.

Another good thing is that my body has decided that it won't hate me for a while. This is a good thing as I was getting really tired of not knowing when it would and would not hate on me. It's nice not having to make any consessions in your life for your body and disease. Why didn't I do this earlier!

Well... for now that is all she wrote about what's happening. Please stayed tuned, there are many more exciting things ahead for me and my family.

Onward and Upward!

Take Care of yourselves!
-D

26 January 2010

Silver Nitrate is NOT my friend!!!

Another week has passed since I was sitting here in this chair watching the Ferelcit flow out of the bag and into the vein in my arm. This is week 3 in this run, and I'm still not feeling a difference.

One thing that makes it SUCK to be me is that my surgery wound decided it didn't want to heal normally or properly. This has caused me to have to burn myself with Silver Nitrate to knock back flesh that shouldn't be growing so flesh that should be can grow and close this incision finally. Let me tell you IT SUCKS beyond belief to have to go through this every couple days for weeks.

What can I say... My body hates itself.

I'm coming up on 4 months with my ostomy. What's the saying... No rest for the wicked? Ever since my surgery, life has gotten crazier and crazier. Sooo much going on that its hard to keep track of it all. So many doctors to see, nurses to consult with, infusions to get, labs to do... Its almost as bad as before surgery. Now would I go back and not do it... HELL NO. But it is confusing.

There really was no point to this post... Just some random thoughts on the situation.

The world has gone mad, don't go with it!

Until next time
-D
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24 January 2010

Randomness on a sunday night

Wow... what a whirlwind of a weekend. Started off interesting enough... ended with a lot of work...

One thing that has been bugging me is the MLS negotiation of the CBA it has with it's players. Now, I have read a lot about the situation, and I am not impressed. As a fan, all I want to see is the players on the field come the end of March. Now as someone who understands budgets and the like, I can see that there is the possibility that giving too much away can only hurt the business in the long run. But not having the players on the field would hurt the league even more.
Seeing that star players in the league like Beckman, Ljungburg, and Donavan have already come out and said that they will now play outside the US permenently if there is any sort of lockout for the coming season is concerning. The players that draw the crowds that the MLS needs to survive are leaving because the MLS doesn't operate like leagues in other parts of the world.

Wake Up Don... The future of your league depends on it

Podcast had been a blast to do. We have been hard at work to improve things as this thing got bigger than we ever expected it to! Thanks to everyone that has downloaded and listened!

Well, the wife and kids are calling... gonna go play a bit before bed

Take care of yourselves! I want you all around when I get old!
-D

16 January 2010

Sleep..... What is this sleep thing you speak of???

It's 5am, do you know where your sanity is?

If so could you see if mine is out partying with it again?

I seem to have lost it and would like to have it back.

kthxbai

14 January 2010

In absolute AMAZEMENT!!!

This past weekend, I finally put a long time dream of mine into reality. And the response has been nothing less than AMAZING!!!

For years, ever since I build the start of my home studio, I have dreamed of doing a weekly podcast. At first, I wanted to do it based on the music that I love to spin with (Vocal House), but didn't really want to have to pay for the usage rights. Then I thought about a local artists show, but the upkeep on something like that is too intense when you are already working 40+ hours a week at a radio station.

Then it happened. It was late August, I was going through the latest batch of tests and hospitalizations for my Crohn's, and I realized there wasn't anything out there candidly talking about any Gut related condition. (trust me, I looked... if it's out there, it's so well hidden that it wasn't worth listening to) So after I got back on my feet (actually, I still wasn't even back to work yet after my ostomy surgery) I decided that I needed to be the one to launch a podcast talking about all the things nobody else wanted to talk about.

The concept behind Talkin 'Bout Guts was born!

Knowing that the success of this podcast depended on the help of the support orginizations, my first call that I made about this was to Get Your Guts In Gear who had helped me get better as well as give me a forum to talk to other about my disease and what I was going through. With them on board, it gave me an outlet to help me promote this and help me gain access to people that could help me with content and getting people to talk to.

And from there.... IT BLEW UP!!!

In my wildest dreams, I never thought this would be anything more than me having some fun and having a couple people (mostly friends and family) as listeners. Just in 4 days, we have over 200 listeners in 3 countires!

Thanks has to go to the UOAA, IDEAS, The IBD Quilt Project, and Uncover Ostomy for helping me with this project. I couldn't have made this half what it is without your help.

And Big Ups to my bro, Matt, for being my sidekick in this project!

I hope that you all enjoy this!

09 January 2010

YAY!!! Finally off the ground!!!

Today we finally got Talkin 'Bout Guts off the ground! Please give it a listen! Also feel free to tell me what you think about it! It's a work in progress, so all suggestions are welcome

08 January 2010

2010 can SUCK IT!!!

I know... I have been neglecting to post anything on here. Truth is.... I haven't really felt like writing anything recently. Life has a really f'd way of messing with you sometimes.

It's not that I don't have anything to talk about. Hell off the top of my head I could have talked about why I abandoned my top 10 list, why NYE sucked balls and set the tone for the rest of the year aparently, the crazy insane hours I have been putting in at work getting things ready for a new year, the podcast that I am trying to launch this weekend, the health and happiness of my kids and wife, my body deciding to hate me once again, ect, ect, ect.......

I just don't have the energy to devote to even thinking comprehendable sentances about any of that...

I don't even have the energy to put into being positive. I have enough to be neutral though... so that's a start.

I thought that life was suppose to start again after Ostomy surgery? I thought that that was the game changer? Really.... NOT A DAMN THING HAS REALLY CHANGED.

Wait a sec.... one thing has changed... I am not in daily pain... just pain every 2-3 days

I don't like this new life. I don't understand it, I don't know how to plan for it, I don't know anything... and that really pisses me off! I can't plan around what I do not understand.

One thing that is KICKING MY ASS lately is Insomnia. I don't understand where it is coming from. I use to deal with it while I was on Prednisone, but I took Ambien and was alright for sleeping. Now... NOTHING is helping me get the sleep I need. So I go to work a Zombie... work as a Zombie... come home feeling like a Zombie... and the cycle repeats...

I think the title says it all for me right now.... 2010 can SUCK IT!!!