Hey everyone, Sorry that I took off once I left the hospital. I have had a lot on my mind as you all could probably tell. I have attempted to put down what I have to say a couple times now, and I keep getting interrupted. Life... what are you going to do about it....
What has happened in the last week... Where to get started....
I have successfully spent the last week on my TPN. With this, I have been allowed only clear fluids + gummy bears. That's it. I must say its been hella hard to sit around and watch others munch down on whatever it is that's around while I am stuck drinking broth and eating gummy bears. If I was 10 years youngers, I would have thought 7up and gummy bears would have been Heavenly for a diet. Then I grew up and learned to appreciate food. I have to say the worst was last weekend when I took the family over to the grandparents house for dinner. I was happy to see everyone and to be out of the house and visiting people, but Frank does some of the most AMAZING food in his smoker, and he did a whole ham. That was a bit painfull to watch people eat that and not be able to enjoy it. Since then I have been better about my jealousy. Being on the TPN is kinda a trip to me. It takes 12 hours a day to infuse everything that I need for the day. They tell me that I could injest nothing else and be just fine. That's kinda weird to think about when you are up and mobile. It's kinda been cool to get use to though. The kids get a little weird seeing daddy hooked up with a tube in his arm half the night.
The family has been amazing through all of this. I know it can't be easy on them seeing daddy in a lot of pain or my wife knowing that I am unable to help out around here as much as I want to. They have been a constant source of energy for me! I know that all that I am dealing with right now is to get me into a place where I will be around for years to come to help them out through everything.
I am starting to fade for the night. I will get more down in the morning.
Life is an interesting mistress... I hope to be around long enough to figure her out!
10 September 2009
03 September 2009
Thursday Morning... I get to go home today!!!
Sorry for the lack of updates yesterday after the morning... I have had a lot on my mind as you all could probably tell. 24 hours later I have had some time to come to grips with the reality of what needs to happen and here's what I know.
Surgery is happening. It's now a matter of how invasive they want to go and how much they need to remove. I am heading home today as there is nothing else that they are going to do with me still here for now, and I would be a whole lot more comfortable at my house. I have to be back in the clinic with my new Colorectal team in about 10 days to do some exploration to see just how bad things are so they can make a definitive decision on what is going to be removed and what type of ostomy I will end up with in the end. From there it will be scheduling the surgery and getting it done. We hope to have me through surgery and recovering by October, giving me a chance to eat like a normal person by Thanksgiving. It sucks that this is the reason that I will be missing the Get Your Guts In Gear Ride in the Midwest, but I know that all my fellow riders and crew members will understand why I am gone and will do their best to make it all happen knowing that I am supporting them from Seattle to the best of my abilities.
I have come to grips with all of this. I still have a lot of questions about my new lifestyle going forward, and I am sure that a lot of people will be getting a lot of emails in the coming days as I am sitting around my house thinking about this, but I am so fortunate to have such a wonderful support system around me with a lot of people that know a lot about what's happening with me and what to expect going forward.
As soon as I know more about what's going to happen in the next couple weeks, I will let you all know. Untill then I thank each and every one of you. You have all been a source of inspiration and strength to me! I really don't think that I would be able to get through this without all of you.
Much love to you all!
Surgery is happening. It's now a matter of how invasive they want to go and how much they need to remove. I am heading home today as there is nothing else that they are going to do with me still here for now, and I would be a whole lot more comfortable at my house. I have to be back in the clinic with my new Colorectal team in about 10 days to do some exploration to see just how bad things are so they can make a definitive decision on what is going to be removed and what type of ostomy I will end up with in the end. From there it will be scheduling the surgery and getting it done. We hope to have me through surgery and recovering by October, giving me a chance to eat like a normal person by Thanksgiving. It sucks that this is the reason that I will be missing the Get Your Guts In Gear Ride in the Midwest, but I know that all my fellow riders and crew members will understand why I am gone and will do their best to make it all happen knowing that I am supporting them from Seattle to the best of my abilities.
I have come to grips with all of this. I still have a lot of questions about my new lifestyle going forward, and I am sure that a lot of people will be getting a lot of emails in the coming days as I am sitting around my house thinking about this, but I am so fortunate to have such a wonderful support system around me with a lot of people that know a lot about what's happening with me and what to expect going forward.
As soon as I know more about what's going to happen in the next couple weeks, I will let you all know. Untill then I thank each and every one of you. You have all been a source of inspiration and strength to me! I really don't think that I would be able to get through this without all of you.
Much love to you all!
02 September 2009
Wednesday Morning... I have more doctors now...
It's now 4:45am and I am awake again. I even took my ambien last night just before midnight and I still didn't get any sleep last night. I guess that I just had too much on my mind last night to really be able to sleep. It really sucks that I don't sleep at night around here. I mean I think I get more sleep over the course of a day while in the hospital, just a whole lot less at night when nobody is here. I watched CaddyShack last night on a loop out of shear laziness. Then again every time that I woke up I was in a different part of the movie, just watched it way out of order is all.
So... It's now time for me to update you all on what was talked about last night. Shortly after 5pm, my GI came in to talk to me about what was found in my colon. I kept asking him to release tape so I can turn it into a Discovery Channel special and make some money off of it, but he wasn't too kean on that... LOL. The good, My disease isn't as widespread as we originally thought. It appears that my small bowel is healing and responding to the drug therapy, which is a good thing. The worst of the bad, the lowest part of my Colon may be beyond repair, including parts of my rectum. It explains a lot of the pain that I have been having lately. Knowing now what the extent of everything is... this is what my GI is recommending, pending consultation of the latest doctors to be added to the team, a couple ColoRectal Surgeons.
1) We continue with the Bowel Rest in hopes that it works to calm down the infected bowel to a point it will respond to medications and I can return to life as usual with everything intact.
2) We resection the bowel, cutting out the really bad parts in hopes that the few mild/moderate places have a chance to heal and keeping "normal" bowel operation in tact. This would also include an extended Bowel Rest with the PICC line still in tact. The fear with this is that there are sections that are the most diseased that can not be removed and that it would just allow the disease to spread quickly through the non diseased portions.
3) We do an Ileostomy and open ourselves to 2 options with this
A) Leave the Large Bowel in my body and in tack. This would allow for an extended period that we could rest it and give us a possibility of reconnecting it at a future date (year+ down the line if it responds and the disease goes into ressession. The down side is that leaving the diseased bowel in there may lead to the disease spreading farther into the bowels or even jumping into other parts of my body (i.e. the RA they fear I have developed in my back or worse).
B) We pull the entire Large Bowel while we are in there. The fear of a resection is that I have a very diseased part of my Rectum, and a resection would reconnect to that diseased section and just cause the disease to spread to the healthy sections quicker. Pulling the entire Colon would, in essence, pull the majority and worse of the disease out of my body, giving me the best shot at recovery.
It's a lot to think about right now. I have had a chance recently to talk with quiet a few people about their ostomies, and I am not really scared about the prospects of living with an Ostomy, but there is a lot to think about.
I hate being in hospitals! Beyond the fact that they never make you feel like you are getting better, I have to spend a lot of time away from Family and Friends. I know in the end this is all suppose to be for the better... but it gets hard to keep that outlook from here when you feel good but still can't just do something simple like get up and walk around. At least I can stll stay connected to the world through the internet and my phone, and I have had a lot of people swing by and visit. I am so fortunate to have such a great family!
Well I am going to go this morning... I have a lot of questions that I want to find answers to.
Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers through this most difficult time in my life. Your Strength has helped me keep my strength and positive attitude around me.
Much Love to you all!
So... It's now time for me to update you all on what was talked about last night. Shortly after 5pm, my GI came in to talk to me about what was found in my colon. I kept asking him to release tape so I can turn it into a Discovery Channel special and make some money off of it, but he wasn't too kean on that... LOL. The good, My disease isn't as widespread as we originally thought. It appears that my small bowel is healing and responding to the drug therapy, which is a good thing. The worst of the bad, the lowest part of my Colon may be beyond repair, including parts of my rectum. It explains a lot of the pain that I have been having lately. Knowing now what the extent of everything is... this is what my GI is recommending, pending consultation of the latest doctors to be added to the team, a couple ColoRectal Surgeons.
1) We continue with the Bowel Rest in hopes that it works to calm down the infected bowel to a point it will respond to medications and I can return to life as usual with everything intact.
2) We resection the bowel, cutting out the really bad parts in hopes that the few mild/moderate places have a chance to heal and keeping "normal" bowel operation in tact. This would also include an extended Bowel Rest with the PICC line still in tact. The fear with this is that there are sections that are the most diseased that can not be removed and that it would just allow the disease to spread quickly through the non diseased portions.
3) We do an Ileostomy and open ourselves to 2 options with this
A) Leave the Large Bowel in my body and in tack. This would allow for an extended period that we could rest it and give us a possibility of reconnecting it at a future date (year+ down the line if it responds and the disease goes into ressession. The down side is that leaving the diseased bowel in there may lead to the disease spreading farther into the bowels or even jumping into other parts of my body (i.e. the RA they fear I have developed in my back or worse).
B) We pull the entire Large Bowel while we are in there. The fear of a resection is that I have a very diseased part of my Rectum, and a resection would reconnect to that diseased section and just cause the disease to spread to the healthy sections quicker. Pulling the entire Colon would, in essence, pull the majority and worse of the disease out of my body, giving me the best shot at recovery.
It's a lot to think about right now. I have had a chance recently to talk with quiet a few people about their ostomies, and I am not really scared about the prospects of living with an Ostomy, but there is a lot to think about.
I hate being in hospitals! Beyond the fact that they never make you feel like you are getting better, I have to spend a lot of time away from Family and Friends. I know in the end this is all suppose to be for the better... but it gets hard to keep that outlook from here when you feel good but still can't just do something simple like get up and walk around. At least I can stll stay connected to the world through the internet and my phone, and I have had a lot of people swing by and visit. I am so fortunate to have such a great family!
Well I am going to go this morning... I have a lot of questions that I want to find answers to.
Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers through this most difficult time in my life. Your Strength has helped me keep my strength and positive attitude around me.
Much Love to you all!
01 September 2009
Tuesday Afternoon... Tests are done for now
Sorry that it took me all day to really feel up to typing this again. This morning I was in for a colonoscopy. That sedation really knocks me out. Once the doctor started pushing the meds, I was feeling all "happy" and don't remeber a thing after that. They tell me that it went well and the pain that I am feeling is from some biopsies that they took. I don't know much more about it than that at this point, as my doctor hasn't been around today yet. I expected it though... he squeezed the colonoscopy in before his slammed clinical day. He should be around sometime soon though to let me know what is what.
Outside that, it's been a really chill day. the PICC line is the only one that I have left in my arm... and it will be there for a couple weeks now. They plan of keeping me "fed" through it for a while.
Well my doctor just showed up to talk.... I will update you all on what he says in a bit.
Much Love to you all
Outside that, it's been a really chill day. the PICC line is the only one that I have left in my arm... and it will be there for a couple weeks now. They plan of keeping me "fed" through it for a while.
Well my doctor just showed up to talk.... I will update you all on what he says in a bit.
Much Love to you all
Tuesday Morning... I have been up way too long already
Good morning people! This is a great day for me I guess. Well last night I wasn't able to sleep much with the nurses coming in and out every hour or so to check my PICC line and the drips. I was hoping to get a bit more sleep last night, but it is what it is. I will sleep when they sedate me for the Colonoscopy. My doctor promised me that I will be good and out when he does it! Last night after my last post my doctor stopped by to chat and let me know what the plan for today is. Hopefully we know more about just how bad my disease is in my bowels and what we need to do to control it going forward.
I hope that, no matter what, I can feel better soon!
For the longest time I fought the idea of surgery. I saw it as taking away something that I needed to live. I have come to see, through the help of my friends and a lot of research, that this is not true. I know now that I can have a productive life without my colon. I might even be able to live a better life than I have had in the past 5 years+.
I will beat this! You all are helping me do it and I LOVE YOU ALL for it!
I have to go now... time to go become my own Discovery Channel Special!
Will update you when I know more!
I hope that, no matter what, I can feel better soon!
For the longest time I fought the idea of surgery. I saw it as taking away something that I needed to live. I have come to see, through the help of my friends and a lot of research, that this is not true. I know now that I can have a productive life without my colon. I might even be able to live a better life than I have had in the past 5 years+.
I will beat this! You all are helping me do it and I LOVE YOU ALL for it!
I have to go now... time to go become my own Discovery Channel Special!
Will update you when I know more!
31 August 2009
Monday Evening... The tests for the day are through
So it's not 430pm and the tests for the day are through. I have gotten the CT's done and the PICC line is placed. The xrays have been taken to see that it's in its proper place... and now I wait. Nobody is around me right now... they are all on their way though. It's really weird to think that I have a tube running through my arm into my chest. So So So So yeah. Clear liquids only for me for quite some time now... I hope that I get use to it.
On the list tonight... COLONOSCOPY PREP! Yay for me! I hope that it goes quickly. I think that I am done writing for now... I need to sleep or something...
On the list tonight... COLONOSCOPY PREP! Yay for me! I hope that it goes quickly. I think that I am done writing for now... I need to sleep or something...
Monday Afternoon... The plan for today is known
So I got here this morning around 730am... It's currently around 140pm and I just found out the entire plan for the day. Currently I am drinking an INSANE amount of contrast so they can do a CT on my entire torso. When I say insane, I really mean it. I have 3 450ml bottles that I have to drink in 30 minutes. And this stuff SUCKS! It's a cross between lemon lime jello, club soda, and chalk. I am hoping that this is all worth it in the end and they can actually see something when they get in there and look. I'm just glad that it's CT's and not MRI's. I hate being in the enclosed machines! Not that I am clostrophobic or anything... I just don't like the sounds of the magnets swirling around my head. It's all worth it in the end though if I get answers and relief.
When I get back from that... they are going to put a PICC line in my arm. From this they are going to give me nurtition for the next couple weeks as they attempt to give my bowels a rest. They will also use this line to pull all my labs and push all my meds for the next little bit from. It kinda scares me because it's a pretty long line they have to feed into my arm so that it sits in one of the main arteries next to my heart. That's a little scary to think about. I know that they do this all the time and all that jazz... but this is the first time that I will be having this done. I have a lot of questions that I will be asking when the nurse comes to do it.
Now time to go to CT.... See you all in a bit
When I get back from that... they are going to put a PICC line in my arm. From this they are going to give me nurtition for the next couple weeks as they attempt to give my bowels a rest. They will also use this line to pull all my labs and push all my meds for the next little bit from. It kinda scares me because it's a pretty long line they have to feed into my arm so that it sits in one of the main arteries next to my heart. That's a little scary to think about. I know that they do this all the time and all that jazz... but this is the first time that I will be having this done. I have a lot of questions that I will be asking when the nurse comes to do it.
Now time to go to CT.... See you all in a bit
Monday.... Just got to the hospital
So I am finally in the hospital. For once I would love to go a year without being in the hospital. But that is the unfortunate thing about being in my postition. They haven't had any luck with Pharmacueticals in controlling my disease. I am glad that I have found a doctor that is working very hard to try and make me feel better. I have also become a better patient. One of the biggest mistakes that I use to make was that I would take some things for granted. Even the little changes in what your body is doing matters, and your doctor can't help with something that they don't know about.
Here's what I do know at this point.......... Absolutely nothing! I am sitting here and don't know what they have planned for me. I know that what the doctor and I talked about last week was that they would tap a main line that they would feed me from for a while and also do some CT scans on practically everything today and I have a colonoscopy scheduled tomorrow along with some other tests and such. I hope to know more about what is really happening with my disease by Wednesday and have answers on what the next steps are by Friday. If this all happens or not... I am not so sure... but I am trying to keep positive!
Thank you all for reading. I know I will be posting a lot on here throughout the week, so please stop by whenever and check it all out
Here's what I do know at this point.......... Absolutely nothing! I am sitting here and don't know what they have planned for me. I know that what the doctor and I talked about last week was that they would tap a main line that they would feed me from for a while and also do some CT scans on practically everything today and I have a colonoscopy scheduled tomorrow along with some other tests and such. I hope to know more about what is really happening with my disease by Wednesday and have answers on what the next steps are by Friday. If this all happens or not... I am not so sure... but I am trying to keep positive!
Thank you all for reading. I know I will be posting a lot on here throughout the week, so please stop by whenever and check it all out
27 August 2009
Still trying to wrap my head around this....
So I went to see my doctors yesterday. First was a check up with my Rhumeotologist so he could check up on my back and see how the Humira was working toward releaving the pain from my Arthritis. He wasn't happy to hear that I was still in pain. From what he saw in my bloodwork and such, the thought that I should be feeling the relief by now... but alas no. So he wants to give it another 5 weeks and see how I feel before trying to determin if it is mechanical instead of muscular. Until then I get to stay on the Fentanyl patches so I can actually go about my day. I absolutely HATE being on pain meds all the time. Most of the time they don't really do anything to me outside just making the pain go away, but every now and again it will hit me and I don't know which way is up! It's the worst when it happens at work and I actually need to focus on something important. Anyways, I hope that this gets better soon! I can't take much more of not being able to get through the day without back pain
So right after I saw the Rhumeotologist, I went down and saw my GI. He wanted to see me because my body was falling apart and I called him to tell him that earlier this week.
So right after I saw the Rhumeotologist, I went down and saw my GI. He wanted to see me because my body was falling apart and I called him to tell him that earlier this week.
20 August 2009
Well... So Much for that thought....
A week or so back I reported that things were looking up again. Well... that just goes to show how quickly things change when it comes to my health and such.
I went and saw the doctor last week in hopes that I could start to taper off this F***ing prednisone that I have been on for way too long, and that's not going to happen quite yet. He put me on to some anitbiotics in hopes to help my body out as it is trying to keep the inflamation under control. One I have been on a couple of times before, and doesn't do anything to me except make me constantly thirsty. The other is a completely new one to me... and it is KICKING MY ASS!!! I don't know if anyone is familiar to the joys of taking Cipro, but if you are not, DO YOUR BEST TO KEEP IT THAT WAY! This is some extreme stuff! They use it for people that have had possible exposure to Anthrax. I know there's always a reason for everything that my doctor does, and he takes into account the possible side effects in compairison to the desired outcome and decides it's worth the risk... but this stuff is really messing with me! Between the return of my Tendonitis and the joint pain, it's causing a major care of insomnia!
Here's a prime example... It's now 2am. Normally I would have been asleep for at least a couple of hours by now... but NO! My body is absolutely spent, my bones and joints ache, my muscles are sore, my bowels are killing me... but my mind is running a million miles a minute and not letting me settle down. All I want to do is get some sleep... and I can't even get that done. Let me tell you my friends.... as some of you know IBD SUX!!!
I went and saw the doctor last week in hopes that I could start to taper off this F***ing prednisone that I have been on for way too long, and that's not going to happen quite yet. He put me on to some anitbiotics in hopes to help my body out as it is trying to keep the inflamation under control. One I have been on a couple of times before, and doesn't do anything to me except make me constantly thirsty. The other is a completely new one to me... and it is KICKING MY ASS!!! I don't know if anyone is familiar to the joys of taking Cipro, but if you are not, DO YOUR BEST TO KEEP IT THAT WAY! This is some extreme stuff! They use it for people that have had possible exposure to Anthrax. I know there's always a reason for everything that my doctor does, and he takes into account the possible side effects in compairison to the desired outcome and decides it's worth the risk... but this stuff is really messing with me! Between the return of my Tendonitis and the joint pain, it's causing a major care of insomnia!
Here's a prime example... It's now 2am. Normally I would have been asleep for at least a couple of hours by now... but NO! My body is absolutely spent, my bones and joints ache, my muscles are sore, my bowels are killing me... but my mind is running a million miles a minute and not letting me settle down. All I want to do is get some sleep... and I can't even get that done. Let me tell you my friends.... as some of you know IBD SUX!!!
13 August 2009
It's been a while since I updated this blog, so I thought that I would as I sit here and wait for the next bus to come by.
Life is interesting for me right now. I have a lot of things going on in my life and no time to make sense of any of them.
This past weekend was the Get Your Guts In Gear Ride for Crohn's and Colitis. It was an absolutely amazing experience that I wish to repeat for many years to come! I always meet some great people working this event, and hook back up with long time friends. The community built around this ride is absolutely amazing and they have been the greatest support group that I could have ever wished for! My Father rode for me this year as I was unable to get clearance from my doctors to participate. My body is doing better than it was a couple of months ago... but I am still a long way from being healthy again. I have to thank him for taking on that task for me! I was so dissapointed when the doctors told me that I couldn't ride this year because I had really gotten my hopes up and started my training, only for them to tell me that it might do more damage in the long term for me to participate. I love that community and will continue to do anything they need me to do to advance the cause
Work is getting Crazy again. For those that don't know... I work for MOViN 92.5 here in Seattle. Everyone is taking vacations this time of the year which means shuffling the schedule around to accomidate the needs of the station with the available staff. This always leads to me working some pretty f'd hours to make sure we have jocks on the air in the shifts that need them. I don't mind too much, it gives me airtime and I have a lot of fun with it. It drives me crazy some times, but I love my job and wouldn't imagine being happy doing ANYTHING else.
Kids grow up WAY too fast. It seems just like yesterday that Amber was in 2nd grade and Elijah was just born, sleeping in my arms in the hospital room. I was sooo terrified holding him at night, scared that I would fall asleep and drop him and not even realize it till he started screaming. Now Amber is heading into 5th grade (in the challenge program also!) and Elijah is almost a year old and starting to attempt to walk around. I blink and they grow up. Next thing you know She'll be bringing home guys to meet the parents and he'll be hiding his girlfriends from us so that we don't embarrass him in front of them.
Outside of that... Life seems to be good! I hope that this new course of medications that they have me on will help and get me back to where I need to be.
Much love for now!
Life is interesting for me right now. I have a lot of things going on in my life and no time to make sense of any of them.
This past weekend was the Get Your Guts In Gear Ride for Crohn's and Colitis. It was an absolutely amazing experience that I wish to repeat for many years to come! I always meet some great people working this event, and hook back up with long time friends. The community built around this ride is absolutely amazing and they have been the greatest support group that I could have ever wished for! My Father rode for me this year as I was unable to get clearance from my doctors to participate. My body is doing better than it was a couple of months ago... but I am still a long way from being healthy again. I have to thank him for taking on that task for me! I was so dissapointed when the doctors told me that I couldn't ride this year because I had really gotten my hopes up and started my training, only for them to tell me that it might do more damage in the long term for me to participate. I love that community and will continue to do anything they need me to do to advance the cause
Work is getting Crazy again. For those that don't know... I work for MOViN 92.5 here in Seattle. Everyone is taking vacations this time of the year which means shuffling the schedule around to accomidate the needs of the station with the available staff. This always leads to me working some pretty f'd hours to make sure we have jocks on the air in the shifts that need them. I don't mind too much, it gives me airtime and I have a lot of fun with it. It drives me crazy some times, but I love my job and wouldn't imagine being happy doing ANYTHING else.
Kids grow up WAY too fast. It seems just like yesterday that Amber was in 2nd grade and Elijah was just born, sleeping in my arms in the hospital room. I was sooo terrified holding him at night, scared that I would fall asleep and drop him and not even realize it till he started screaming. Now Amber is heading into 5th grade (in the challenge program also!) and Elijah is almost a year old and starting to attempt to walk around. I blink and they grow up. Next thing you know She'll be bringing home guys to meet the parents and he'll be hiding his girlfriends from us so that we don't embarrass him in front of them.
Outside of that... Life seems to be good! I hope that this new course of medications that they have me on will help and get me back to where I need to be.
Much love for now!
02 August 2009
It's the middle of the night and I am working.... Gotta love my JOB!
One of the things that I love the most about my job is that it is never the same from week to week. There is always something new and different happening around the office that makes every day just a ton of fun!
This weeks fun times are all around Vacations. I wish it was mine... but that comes soon enough. When
06 July 2009
random thoughts on a Monday Morning
Good Morning World!
This post won't really have a particular direction that it is going in, but I have a bunch of random things on my mind that I want to get down somewhere, so here it is...
First: We are one month away from the Get Your Guts In Gear Seattle Ride! I am starting to get really excited! I will be crewing this year, so it will be a lot of fun for me, but I am still a little dissapointed that I will not be riding. Well at least with this much time to plan, I can have a lot of fun this year! I am considering packing up the DJ gear for the weekend and taking it along! It would be so much fun to spin everyday at lunch and be in a more constant contact with the riders. We'll see all the riders in 1 short month!
USA soccer... What can I say, the Brazil match in the Confederations cup has to be the most exciting game that I have seen them play in a long time! I really do hope that that was a preview of the level of play that they will be bringing to the table for the World Cup next year in South Africa. Tim Howard is well on his way of filling the shoes left behind by Kasey Keller and it is a pleasure to watch him in goal. A couple of Sounders FC players got the call to play on the team for the Gold Cup matches this past weekend so here's to hoping they get a slot on the final 18 man roster for the cup next year. Watching the Gold Cup match against Grenada was funny at best. Watching Grenada stumble around the field, and having a keeper that didn't look any better than me, was a great pick me up. Hopefully we can make better teams look that stupid soon.
The 4th of July was fun. I spent it out at my fathers house with a bunch of his coworkers enjoying a beautiful day. I wish that I would have known more people there so that I could have had more people to talk to, but I managed to get by. They dug a pit out in the back corner of his yard and did a whole pig in the ground. That was AWESOME!!! It was so delicious, and I'm still eating on it. (I took an entire hotel pan of pig home with me at the end of the night) I thought that my son would have a problem with all the explosions and such, but he loved watching the colors and shapes. It was just the howling types that he got a little scared of. I was impressed. Just like daddy, he has very sensitive hearing, but can hear things that I didn't think he could. Maybe he'll follow daddy into the music industry. I very much enjoyed spending the day with my father and his wife. We don't get to do that often enough. I know that there is a lot of tension inside the family because of this or that, but I try not to get involved with it as I just don't want it to get in the way of the relationship that my family and I have with him. I don't spend enough time with him and his wife, and would spend more if I had a vehicle to make it happen more often. That's my new goal for the year, get reliable transportation so that I can go see the parents and family more often.
Now on to my favorite sport to watch F1. I have to say that the drama needs to end! FOTA and the FIA finally found common ground, now it's time to get back to the business of racing! Now if I were a voting member of the FIA, the idiot Max Mosley would have been gone a long time ago. He has brought a lot of embarassment to the establishment for too long, and the instance that the FOTA said that they wanted him out or they were gone, he would have been canned! Bernie and the FOM aren't doing much better. It is absolutely rediculous that the 2nd largest market for F1 (North America) doesn't have a race on the calendar for either 2009 or 2010. I think someone needs to check ol' Bernies pockets to see why there are all these new races in Asia, but nothing in North America. Bernie and Max, do the racing world a favor, DISAPPEAR!
If you are looking for a great show to watch, I highly recommend Mad Men on AMC. It's set in 1960's NY and follows the lifes of advertising executives on Madison Ave. It's interesting stuff. I have to say that some things seem a little overdone, but overall a great story. Give it a watch if you need something to kill some time.
I now kinda have an idea of what it was like for my mother in the summers. Growing up I lived with my mother and spent weekends with my father. During the summer, because of the lack of need to be one place to get to school, we would spend longer amounts of time with my father. Well these last couple weeks, my daughter has been spending time away for one reason or another. At first it was pretty cool to have the time with my wife and the quiet around the house. Now I miss her not being there. It gets way too quiet around the house and its a little eerie. That's alright, we'll just have to have more fun when she gets home.
Well there are my random thought for the day. Hopefully you are all having a great day.
This post won't really have a particular direction that it is going in, but I have a bunch of random things on my mind that I want to get down somewhere, so here it is...
First: We are one month away from the Get Your Guts In Gear Seattle Ride! I am starting to get really excited! I will be crewing this year, so it will be a lot of fun for me, but I am still a little dissapointed that I will not be riding. Well at least with this much time to plan, I can have a lot of fun this year! I am considering packing up the DJ gear for the weekend and taking it along! It would be so much fun to spin everyday at lunch and be in a more constant contact with the riders. We'll see all the riders in 1 short month!
USA soccer... What can I say, the Brazil match in the Confederations cup has to be the most exciting game that I have seen them play in a long time! I really do hope that that was a preview of the level of play that they will be bringing to the table for the World Cup next year in South Africa. Tim Howard is well on his way of filling the shoes left behind by Kasey Keller and it is a pleasure to watch him in goal. A couple of Sounders FC players got the call to play on the team for the Gold Cup matches this past weekend so here's to hoping they get a slot on the final 18 man roster for the cup next year. Watching the Gold Cup match against Grenada was funny at best. Watching Grenada stumble around the field, and having a keeper that didn't look any better than me, was a great pick me up. Hopefully we can make better teams look that stupid soon.
The 4th of July was fun. I spent it out at my fathers house with a bunch of his coworkers enjoying a beautiful day. I wish that I would have known more people there so that I could have had more people to talk to, but I managed to get by. They dug a pit out in the back corner of his yard and did a whole pig in the ground. That was AWESOME!!! It was so delicious, and I'm still eating on it. (I took an entire hotel pan of pig home with me at the end of the night) I thought that my son would have a problem with all the explosions and such, but he loved watching the colors and shapes. It was just the howling types that he got a little scared of. I was impressed. Just like daddy, he has very sensitive hearing, but can hear things that I didn't think he could. Maybe he'll follow daddy into the music industry. I very much enjoyed spending the day with my father and his wife. We don't get to do that often enough. I know that there is a lot of tension inside the family because of this or that, but I try not to get involved with it as I just don't want it to get in the way of the relationship that my family and I have with him. I don't spend enough time with him and his wife, and would spend more if I had a vehicle to make it happen more often. That's my new goal for the year, get reliable transportation so that I can go see the parents and family more often.
Now on to my favorite sport to watch F1. I have to say that the drama needs to end! FOTA and the FIA finally found common ground, now it's time to get back to the business of racing! Now if I were a voting member of the FIA, the idiot Max Mosley would have been gone a long time ago. He has brought a lot of embarassment to the establishment for too long, and the instance that the FOTA said that they wanted him out or they were gone, he would have been canned! Bernie and the FOM aren't doing much better. It is absolutely rediculous that the 2nd largest market for F1 (North America) doesn't have a race on the calendar for either 2009 or 2010. I think someone needs to check ol' Bernies pockets to see why there are all these new races in Asia, but nothing in North America. Bernie and Max, do the racing world a favor, DISAPPEAR!
If you are looking for a great show to watch, I highly recommend Mad Men on AMC. It's set in 1960's NY and follows the lifes of advertising executives on Madison Ave. It's interesting stuff. I have to say that some things seem a little overdone, but overall a great story. Give it a watch if you need something to kill some time.
I now kinda have an idea of what it was like for my mother in the summers. Growing up I lived with my mother and spent weekends with my father. During the summer, because of the lack of need to be one place to get to school, we would spend longer amounts of time with my father. Well these last couple weeks, my daughter has been spending time away for one reason or another. At first it was pretty cool to have the time with my wife and the quiet around the house. Now I miss her not being there. It gets way too quiet around the house and its a little eerie. That's alright, we'll just have to have more fun when she gets home.
Well there are my random thought for the day. Hopefully you are all having a great day.
01 July 2009
Life is Good.... Why Do I let myself get down like that...
Couple of things first.
There is a great local article in The Enterprise newspaper today about me, my father, and the GYGIG ride here in Seattle. You should give it a read, the author did a great job with it.
http://www.enterprisenewspapers.com/article/20090701/ETP03/707019882&template=ETPart
Also I want to say a HUGE THANK YOU to all of you that have reached out in the last couple weeks. I let myself get too down and all of you helped me realize that things are a lot better than I was allowing myself to see it. Thank you all so very much! I appreciate every one of you more than you could ever believe.
As for my last post.... Here's what I have to say about it.
I have read and reread it a million times now, and I can't say that anything in it was untrue only on the basis of that is how I felt when I wrote it. I know that this surprised a lot of people, because I am normally a very upbeat kind of person. The truth is I have been hurting for a while now. Some of the time the upbeat person that you see is mearly a facade. I internalize way too much and I know that, but having done it for so long, I am not sure how to even start changing the way I deal with things. I internalize way too much and I know that it doesn't help anything. I have taken a lot of time to talk to people about what is happening, and have started working through some of the issues that I had let build up. Overall I think that I am doing better mentally today than I was doing when I wrote that post.
As for the ride... this yo-yo of a year continues! I have been instructed once again that I can not ride, this time by my Rhuemotoligist. It turns out that my crohn's has caused me to develope inflammatory arthristis in my back. This frustrates me a ton, as I wanted sooo badly to ride this year. I don't see it as a failure on my part anymore, but as a huge dissapointment to me as this is a goal of mine. I will do it one day... it just may take a while for my body to agree with me.
On the absolute plus side for me, my father has taken up the challenge and riding in my place! I can not begin to tell you how happy I am that he has decided to do this! I know the momumental task that this is for him and I thank him for doing it for me! I will be right beside him helping him out all along the route! So please if you feel like donating... donate toward his ride, he needs all the help we can give him! Matthew Weatherhogg is his name, and I don't know what his rider number is, but that's ok.
Until we meet again!
There is a great local article in The Enterprise newspaper today about me, my father, and the GYGIG ride here in Seattle. You should give it a read, the author did a great job with it.
http://www.enterprisenewspapers.com/article/20090701/ETP03/707019882&template=ETPart
Also I want to say a HUGE THANK YOU to all of you that have reached out in the last couple weeks. I let myself get too down and all of you helped me realize that things are a lot better than I was allowing myself to see it. Thank you all so very much! I appreciate every one of you more than you could ever believe.
As for my last post.... Here's what I have to say about it.
I have read and reread it a million times now, and I can't say that anything in it was untrue only on the basis of that is how I felt when I wrote it. I know that this surprised a lot of people, because I am normally a very upbeat kind of person. The truth is I have been hurting for a while now. Some of the time the upbeat person that you see is mearly a facade. I internalize way too much and I know that, but having done it for so long, I am not sure how to even start changing the way I deal with things. I internalize way too much and I know that it doesn't help anything. I have taken a lot of time to talk to people about what is happening, and have started working through some of the issues that I had let build up. Overall I think that I am doing better mentally today than I was doing when I wrote that post.
As for the ride... this yo-yo of a year continues! I have been instructed once again that I can not ride, this time by my Rhuemotoligist. It turns out that my crohn's has caused me to develope inflammatory arthristis in my back. This frustrates me a ton, as I wanted sooo badly to ride this year. I don't see it as a failure on my part anymore, but as a huge dissapointment to me as this is a goal of mine. I will do it one day... it just may take a while for my body to agree with me.
On the absolute plus side for me, my father has taken up the challenge and riding in my place! I can not begin to tell you how happy I am that he has decided to do this! I know the momumental task that this is for him and I thank him for doing it for me! I will be right beside him helping him out all along the route! So please if you feel like donating... donate toward his ride, he needs all the help we can give him! Matthew Weatherhogg is his name, and I don't know what his rider number is, but that's ok.
Until we meet again!
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